Ouch!

Last Friday I found myself on the dentist’s chair after a long time. Though I had been on that chair for more than a dozen times in life earlier, I was scared. This time it wasn’t just picking up a tooth or blocking up a cavity but an Operation.

The room felt colder than outside. I asked the nurse to increase the room temperature but that didn’t give rise to the temperature inside me.

I was scared and was waiting for my husband to be there besides me. The doc probably sensed that and told its okay to wait for him. But as always I had to show that I was “brave” and so I asked the doc to go on.

As the anaesthetic injection started its activity in my mouth my husband walked in. I was relieved, relax and ready.

Oh these dentists talk so much! But in a way that helps...he told me for the umpteenth time that there would be no pain just some pressure and that everything would be all right....and he started tugging and pulling...huff and puff.... and then with a child like happiness the doc said to my husband “She didn’t know it”....and I knew that the bloody tooth was out. He stitched up my gum and I was ready to be released.

Now I sat there wondering what’s stored next...reassured that nothing much is going to happen I was back home.

Food became an object of reverence. Though I was hungry I couldn’t eat much.

As I woke up next morning I found my face had doubled on the right side! Oh my my! ...how odd it looked and how bad was the pain.

Everyone around me (though were aware of the pain) couldn’t suppress a chuckle at the sight. Some even said I look like some cartoon character – though couldn’t specify which one!

It’s the third day today but am yet to be 100% cured...hoping all’s well soon and I am back to being myself.

Eternal Truth

Couple of days back a sudden violent realisation came upon me. The Eternal Truth "this is just one life"! One continuous process where one grows older and moves thorough the different stages of life. Though the roles change with the changing circumstances but essentially the character remains the same. Like those never ending Balaji production's daily soaps!
When I spoke of this to my husband and friends they said "Yeh, that’s already known to us. What took you so long to understand?"
That set me thinking, why was I amazed by this thought NOW? This is what has been happening ever since I was born. This is what has been told to me a zillion times "study well if you want to do something in life, this is just one time you got". But then all those statements made their mark only now. Now, when half the time is already wasted, now when life is transformed into a boring rigmarole - home to office to home? Why now?
Probably that’s the key, my life. The way it’s shaping up or rather not :) the things that I wanted to do but never got around to do; the things I wanted to accomplish but never had the courage.
Or perhaps it’s the deep influence of our movies, where each actor plays a different character and goes through its full life story a different one each time. Being the kind of dreamer that I am I conjured that there will be a different character to be played after this one is over...may be.
Whatever it is, just as the saying goes its better late than never! This realisation made me think about life and what can be done now to make it worthwhile. The first in the direction is to let the world know what goes on in my mind :) and this is the place I have chosen.