
Friends contributed a lot to the dream and so did the rightly-so idiot-box. Then there were titanic influences of the Holly-n-Bolly-wood. There was no escape from those spacious reception, state-of-the-art buildings, lavish interiors and to go with that well groomed people, crisp dresses and currency of course! Everything and everyone seemed to pronounce the same verdict – if you are not part of that lot, you have not achieved a thing in life.
“Tong” – a stroke of luck and I found myself receiving an appointment letter from one of those coveted companies housed in one of those state-of-the-art buildings. Life changed. Colleagues in the old office looked up at me with renewed reverence. Well, I was the chosen one for the big leap. I was happy. More dreams were now hovering on the edge.
Day one and I felt lost. So many faces – all new, some tensed, some carefree, some angry, some happy. And I was confused and terrified dwarfed by the hugeness.
After some looking around I found the place – the much dreamt cube - my cube – and I was happy again. At last, a corner to myself. I had lots of plans to make this corner my own. Lot of things needed to be done...
Half month down the line, I was ready with the environment. Sitting snugly in a corner was my pet stuffed monkey – two pictures of the family, a small cactus, one fancy coffee mug, a designer water bottle and a laughing Buddha to take care of my luck in this new world.
The neighbouring cubites were curious about my preparations. Some just looked, some smiled and some talked. Oblivious to all my collection kept growing each day.
With ‘new joinee’ tag now beginning to fade, work pressure slowly started piling up. Every day the log off time seemed to drift away in the night. The long calls, deadlines, performance and anonymity.
Lost appetite, lost food, lost friends, lost time, lost my-self. The two day weekends transformed into extended sleep hours. Irritated, short tempered, depressed – that’s what I became. Somehow the thought of returning to the cubicle everyday was repulsive – but no option – I had chosen it!
It was my dream which turned into a nightmare...I wished to be in a beautiful cube and ended up being cubed!!